A Complete Let Down!!! :(

So after weeks and weeks of anticipation, asking, and forgetfulness… I FINALLY got to go to the adult take shelves in the other building (where the adult people live). So with my band-aided feet (my new shoes are still giving me problems and I wasn’t wearing them but then I realized that they would NEVER get broken in if I didn’t wear them so I put band aids on both my pinkie toes and on my right heel) and a dash through the turnstile thing that lets you into the building, which resulted in a little buzzer going off, we ascended to the 5th floor.

As you know I like adult romance books (though I am starting to grow fond of teen romance books) and I was excited to find books there that I wouldn’t be able to read until months from now.

But, sadly, after wandering the 5th floor and going through this secret shortcut through a girls bathroom to the stairs so that we could wander the 4th floor… I found nothing. NOTHING!!

The books were all boring, grown up books. And that makes me sound like a child but that’s really all there was. The only romance books I found were the cheesy ones that EVERYONE knows I hate and vampire romance novels. The only romantic vampire novels I have ever read and liked was the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer and the first book in the Drake Chronicles by Alyxandra Harvey.

It was sssssoooo annoying.

So I have come to realize that The Company publishes great YA books but when it comes to adult books (and my reading tastes) they are sadly lacking 😦

But then it made me appreciate how lucky I was to get an internship in the children and YA department (YA means young adult, in case you didn’t know) instead of the adult section. I would have been MISERABLE!!!

The people there were way too quiet and serious. And the walls had NO pictures on them. It was just really stiff and quite frankly, kind of scary. It was like being in a library with a creepy old librarian glaring at you. It was terrible.

But then I felt better when we left and I got back to my desk and my awaiting Snapple 🙂

Oh and I also realized that we at The Company’s children’s department have WAY better take shelves and that we’re  just more awesome in every way imaginable 🙂

OH and p.s. Who else cried when Mr. Nigel Murray died on Bones???? It was ssssooo depressing. And when they kept showing shots of people walking around and the dude the with the gun looking through the sniper hole thing I was holding my breath in sheer anticipation (and not in a good way). But it was so sweet when they sang Lime in da Coconut for him because that was his favorite song. It was just like after Jesse died on CSI Miami and everyone went to play basketball in his honor. It was SSSSOOO sweet that I cried again. But god I wish that Mr. Nigel Murray (and Jesse for that matter) didn’t have to die 😦


05/16/2011. Uncategorized. 1 comment.

I’ll Miss It When I’m Gone

This is how I feel!!! Isn't she adorable???

So Senior internship ends on Friday and I’m really bummed 😦

I like being in the working world without having to worry about paying for food and making sure that I don’t get evicted because I spent all of my money on books and iTunes. It’s fun dressing up and being able to leave the house at 9:50 (if I walk fast so) that I’ll be at my desk (yes I have my own desk, I forget if I mentioned that already) by 10:00. All my friends are jealous 🙂

Especially, my friend Michelle, who doesn’t go to my school and still has classes and homework. She hates me right now. But then I let her pick the movie and all is forgiven 🙂

Anyway. I will miss getting an hour lunch break and reading books for a higher purpose then just for fun. I tell you, publishing looks more and more appealing. But then again, if I was a teacher (which is what I’ve wanted to be since I was little) I’d get off work when my kids would get out of school. Yes, I think that far in advance. I want 6 of them after all, though I can settle 4 or 5 (or 6 :))

But the thing that I’ll miss the most is the free books and the take shelves. Almost three times a week I take the long way around and stop at the take shelves and I almost find books that I want. And most of them haven’t been published yet so I’m ahead of the curve 🙂 And it saves money for my parents.

I’ll also miss finding mysterious books on my desk. No one ever tells me who leaves them but I like coming to work and finding little presents 🙂 It makes me feel better about the fact that I am awake and it’s before noon.

But then today, my mentor said that if I wanted I could continue with my internship because I liked it so much… and inside I was like YES!!!!!! So all I have to do is ask if I can stay longer 🙂

And then before I know it, it will be Senior Project night, prom, Senior Banquet, graduation and then SUMMER!!!!!!!! YAY 🙂

And then it will be September (which I believe is when Skidmore starts) and I’ll be in college which will be SSSSSOOOO weird. But I’m excited… as well as COMPLETELY FREAKED OUT!!!

I REALLY hope that I don’t get a messy roommate because I CAN”T STAND clutter (Fired Up! reference. LOVE IT :))

It would be AMAZING if my roommate could:

-Love to read
-Like to go to bed late and wake up late
-Wake me up when I tell her to go away
-Get me chicken soup when I’m sick (and of course I’ll do the same for her)
-Be nice and funny
-And like the same TV shows as me so that we can discuss them in detail
-OH!! And she should know how to cook in case the cafeteria burns down or something because I can’t cook for my life. Seriously. I mess up pasta. One time I forgot that you have to bring the water to a boil FIRST and THEN put the pasta in. I put the pasta in when I put the water in. Yeah. I have problems.

All of these qualities would work for future boyfriends as well 🙂
Just in case you were wondering.

05/11/2011. Uncategorized. 2 comments.

School Books

 The Classics

Has anyone noticed that it seems to be physically impossible for teachers to not assign depressing books for class????????

I mean I’ve read:

8th Grade
Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
Romeo and Juliet by… if you don’t know who I will pray for you (Not that I pray or anything but you know what I mean)

9th Grade
Krik? Krak! by Edwidge Danticat
Night by Elie Wiesel
In The Time Of The Butterflies by Julia Alvarez
Antigone by Sophocles

10th Grade
Macbeth by… diddo for Romeo and Juliet
Cat on a Hot Tin Roof by Tennessee Williams
The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison
The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
In The Blood (a play BASED on The Scarlet Letter) by Suzan Lori Parks

11th Grade
The Laramie Project by Moisés Kaufman

12th Grade
The Goat or Who Is Sylvia? by Edward Albee


None of these books had any happiness in them whatsoever and I’m not even talking about the endings (though their were not happy endings either). Not one of these books had anything uplifting to their name. It’s all death, destruction, rape and unhappiness.

Now I’m not saying that they weren’t good books, though some of them were VERY boring, they were all in-depth, emotional, and thought-provoking ( 🙂 big words)

But this just goes to show that all “good” books are depressing and that books that are happy or that have relatively happy endings are not study worthy.

Now THAT is depressing.

Who wants to leave class more depressed then when they went in??? I don’t!!!

People should start writing happy books really well so that we can study them in class. Then teachers wouldn’t complain about long faces in class (well we’ll probably still have long faces cause we’re in school, but at least the books we’re reading won’t make us even MORE long faced :))

05/10/2011. Uncategorized. 2 comments.

Skipping the Gross Parts

Ok so I love romance suspense because it blends together two of my favorite things ever!!! Action and a happy ending. I like the jumping off roof tops and getting shot at part as well as the sweet, “”breakfast in bed” moments. I also like it when the guy saves the girl (it may be unfeminist-like and I don’t think that girls aren’t capable of saving themselves and whatever… but I still like it when the guy saves the girl. And when the guy proposes. Call me old-fashioned).

The only thing I completely, utterly, without a doubt DON’T like about romance suspense novels is the sex scenes.

Sometimes I read more suspenseful, romance suspense novels and there is little sex but it’s still there. Other times I read more romantic, romance suspense novels and there is A LOT of sex scenes. Either way… I HATE THEM.

Their gross, graphic, and they make me want to gag. I made the mistake of reading one once and I was scarred for life. I mean who actually does things like that?????? It’s disgusting.

At first I thought that I couldn’t read really romantic, romance suspense novels and I was mad because I really liked them (except for the sex parts of course) but then I realized that I could have my cake and eat it too, at the same time (my mom’s favorite line to say is “you can have your cake and eat it too, just not at the same time.” It’s very annoying)!!!

All I have to do was skip those parts.

So now whenever I get the feeling that there will be sex (it’s pretty easy to figure it out) I skip the next few pages until it changes chapters or until there is a page break. They usually go on for two or three pages (though I once read a book where the sex scene went on for 6 pages, multiple times throughout the book. It was exhausting to have to skip so many pages) so it’s not that hard but it’s definitely annoying. But I deal with it because, why should I have to give up a whole section of romance suspense novels JUST because women like to write gory, gross sex scenes???!!!

Answer? I shoudn’t 🙂

05/09/2011. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Reading During Commercials


It feels like I am the only person that does this because people always look at me weirdly when I do but when I’m watching TV or waiting for something to load on my computer, I read to fill the space and also because I feel guilty that I’m watching TV and am on my computer instead of reading.

It’s a perfect time to read actually because I’d just be staring at my computer screen or watching pointless commercials about how bad the iPhone 4 is and laughing at the 2 guys on the ski lift because I would so do that if I was the guy with the hair 🙂 But thats not really a good use of my vast, intellectual knowledge so I read. Though the books are rarely (never) educational or thought-provoking, I still feel like I’m learning something. Like how not to jump off a burning building or how to seduce someone when you are covered in dirt. Very useful information 🙂

So anyway, last night I was watching Bones (I LOVE BONES!!!) and reading The Beach Trees by Karen White during the commercials. It was actually kind of cool because I was solving two different mysteries in my head. I was trying to figure out why the deaf girl in Bones was covered in blood when I didn’t think she was a murderer and I was trying to find out who killed Aimee Guidry’s mother and why, in The Beach Trees. Reading while watching TV makes my brain work harder 🙂

I’m actually very good at figuring out who did it on those murder mystery shows. I’m always like “the mailman did it” and then after they accused the husband (they always blame the husband) and the boss, it turns out that it was the mailman!!! It’s a skill 🙂

Ok so back to Bones. Who saw it??? I cried at the end but it was a good kind of crying because it was a happy ending but still way sad 😦 BUT Brennan and Booth are getting closer every day and that makes me happy 🙂

But what I really want to talk about is next weeks episode!!! You know how they always have those little “And next weeks episode…” things after each show?? Well it said that one of the Bones team was going to die!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was like NNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! How could they do this to me??????????? What did I ever do to the writers of Bones???????

So anyway, naturally I had to figure out who was going to die.

So from process of elimination here’s what I have concluded:

Bones– NNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!! The shows named after her. And they just wouldn’t do it.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They already put Bones and Booth through too much already. I mean first their was some sexual tension, then Booth lost his memory (who else had a heart attack during the Family Guy Bones episode??? I thought they were really together!!! I was SSSSSOOOO tight when I found that Booth was just in a coma or something) then Booth told Brennan he loved her and she said she “wasn’t ready,” then Brennan said she loved Booth but he was with Hannah. And NOW they can FINALLY be together!!!!!

OOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! They couldn’t kill him. He’s the BEST!!! And he’s gonna be a dad!!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They could NOT kill Angela. She’s PREGNANT with Hodgin’s baby. They would not be that cruel. If they did that I would literally never come out of my room again (not literally but I would definitely boycott the show)

Sweets- NNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE SWEETS. He’s so sweet and adorable and funny!!!!!

Cam– NNNNNNNNOOOOOOO!!!!!! She has Michelle (who is on Nikita and COMPLETELY hates Alex. Sometimes I’m like “whoa whats Michelle doing shooting people in the head???) and Michelle needs her!!!

Interns– NNNNOOOOO!!!!!! I LOVE the various interns!!! None of them could die. I’m already mad that Zack turned out to be the prodigy Gorgonzola guy (though we find out later that he really didn’t do anything, still, he’s not there anymore and no one but Sweets knows that)

Conclusion– THEY CAN”T KILL ANYBODY OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So yeah. There will be tears next week

05/06/2011. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Me Being Random

Recently, I went to the bookstore, because I was bored and you can never go to the bookstore too many times and this is what I saw…


I must say that this disturbs me!! I mean The Sexorcist??????????????????? Who in their right mind came up with that?????? I mean seriously. And I don’t know if you can read the bottom part of the back of the book or not (you kind of would have to have super sight) but if you can’t then,  no joke, word for word this is what it says…

Warning: This book contains a hero guaranteed to heat things up, a heroine bound to tug your heart strings, and enough demonic mischief to keep you smiling all the way to the chapel.

WHAT???? How can they sleep at night??? That is the most cheesy, weird, random thing that I have ever read and I have read a lot of things.

I mean, I am considering losing my faith in humanity!! Because what has the world come to when things like that make it onto bookshelves???

It’s a travesty I tell you. A gosh darn, honest to God, shame.

05/06/2011. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Vast Fields vs. Change


A couple of weeks ago I read a book called Vast Fields of Ordinary by Nick Burd.

It was really depressing (and as you know I don’t read depressing books) but I had to read it because I had to write discussion questions for it. And guess what??? Surprisingly, I really liked it 🙂

It’s about a gay boy named Dade Hamilton who has a secret relationship with Pablo, the most popular boy in school (who happens to have a girlfriend and is on the football team). Pablo is ashamed of who he is so he makes Dade keep their make-out sessions a secret and barely acknowledges him in school (which is a really douchey thing to do if you ask me).

And of course it doesn’t just stop there. Oh no. His dad is having an affair, his mom is going crazy, he’s being corrupted by his neighbors niece and Dade may also be in love with Alex, the cook at Taco Taco (the equivalent of Taco Bell only sketchier).

And despite the fact that this sounds like the exact opposite of what I like to read, I LOVED IT!!!

It was so sweet when Dade first kissed Alex and heartbreaking when Pablo gets jealous and comes crawling back to Dade after he completely ruined everything because he was scared.

So yeah, GREAT BOOK!!!


This week my boss gave me a book another called How To Change the World by Madeleine George, (which is still in manuscript form) so that I could tell her boss what I thought about it.

At the beginning it was JUST like Vast Fields of Ordinary except the main character was a girl. Yep, a girl named Jesse who has a secret relationship with Emily, the most popular boy in school (who happens to have a boyfriend and is class vice president, but its ok because she can do way more things then she could if she were president). Emily does not want her two different lives mixing together so she makes Jesse keep their make-out sessions a secret and barely acknowledges her in school (which is AGAIN a really douchey thing to do!!!).

And AGAIN, Jesse’s pain does not end there!!! Her mom is a recovered cancer patient, her dad is always psycho-analyzing her because he’s a therapist, NorthStar (a big corporate company) wants to invade her little town by building a StarMart (which makes small businesses lose their business), and everyone thinks she’s going out with her new freshman friend Esther!!!

But despite these VERY similar similarities, that is where the similarities end.

Where Nick Burd goes for more of an emotional, tragic type feel, Madeleine George goes for a more funny, find yourself kind of feel.

I didn’t like How To Change the World as much as Vast Fields but I did like it. I was very proud of Jesse when she… ha ha I’m not gonna tell you, you’re gonna have to read the book 🙂 But I will tell you that it was definitely less depressing than Vast Fields and the ending was more joyful so I appreciated that, but I actually didn’t mind THAT much that Vast Fields had a (VERY!) depressing ending.

It actually made it better (it pains me to say that but its true. If it was a happy ending it wouldn’t have had the same impact).

So… in my first ever book battle Vast Fields won!!!

But you should still read How To Change the World when it comes out 🙂

05/05/2011. Uncategorized. 1 comment.

The Tragedy of Forgotten Books

I don’t know about you but I have a very cruel and unfortunate habit of borrowing/buying books and then forgetting about them for weeks, months, and/or years. I just get more and more new books and if I like the new books more, then the old books will be shoved to the back of my bookshelf for an unknown amount of time.

You’d be surprised how many books in my bookcase I haven’t read. I’d say about 1/6 are unread (I’m not really good with fractions and I have no clue what the exact fraction is but 1/6 sounds fine enough).

And I feel really bad because they must be very lonely and feel unloved but I just cannot stop myself from buying new books if I see one that I like 😦

The only chance they have of being read is when I (for some reason) decide to weed my shelf of books that I have already read and didn’t like (I keep books that I really liked and then re-read them when I feel in the mood). When this happens,  I rediscover forgotten books and then they’re back on my radar. Some books get lucky and some books don’t. Sadly thats just the way it is.

But… I have formulated an ingenious plan that probably won’t work but I’ll give it the old college try (ha ha I think I finally get that saying). So here it goes: As you all (hopefully) know I’m going to Skidmore in the fall. And obviously, though sadly, I can’t bring all my books with me because they would definitely take over my dorm room and annoy my roommate to where she would be thinking of secretly setting them on fire so that she could get out of the room without the risk of breaking her neck, but… I can (and will) bring a couple. So I’ll just bring all the books that I havn’t read and read them there!!!!

Genious right? Right.

So now that I at least have an idea that has a chance of working, I don’t feel so bad anymore because eventually the lonely, forgotten books that reside on my book shelf will be read.

Now my plan won’t address the actual problem (the fact that I often buy books even if I don’t really want them just for the sake of buying books) but  it will remedy the situation until I can rid myself of my horrid habit (Lindsay Lohan’s, Parent Trap reference) 🙂

05/02/2011. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.


Once upon a time there was a girl named Gracen who was on Spring Break in Florida because she always went to Florida for Spring Break. One day she got very bored and did not know what to do. Her mother’s words of “If your bored then you a boring person” ran through her mind but she dismissed them because her mother was not there and because it was annoying. Then an idea popped into her head. I should go to www.fanfiction.com because my friend has been bugging me to go there for months now… so she did. And it was arguably the best decision she ever made. THE END

In case you didn’t know that story was about me 🙂

Yes. FanFiction (I don’t actually know if it’s one word or not but it looks way cooler that way so that is how I am going to write it from here on out) is the best thing ever created since grilled cheese sandwiches. Whoever thought of it is a genius!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FYI: FanFiction.com is a place where people use characters from books, movies, T.V shows, Manga, etc… to write their own stories with them in it. And ITS FREAKING COOL!!!!!!!

All of my favorite shows are there like Bones, Psych, CSI Miami, White Collar, Nikita, Hellcats (though I don’t usually read Hellcat FanFiction), etc…

And of course Supernatural, my all time favorite FanFiction to read. Incidentally, I no longer like the show anymore because they made Sam soulless and evil so I am boycotting the show until they fix it BBBBUUUUTTTT I LOVE its FanFiction. More than the actual show obviously because people are nice and don’t make Sam evil (well some people do but I don’t read their stories).

Another awesome thing is that FanFiction.com has WeeChesters!!!! Which the show does not. WeeChesters are FanFiction about Sam and Dean when they’re young (the show starts when they are 22 and 26). ITS AWESOME because their SOOOOO CUUUUTTTEEE!!!!!!!

So yeah. I think I read FanFiction more than I read regular books. Which is a problem I know but I can’t help it. It’s just too addicting. I really do feel like an addict sometimes. A FanFiction addict. I’ve tried to beat it but then I get these FanFiction cravings and its CRAZY. It’s all I can think about until I find a computer and read some. One day I will overcome this obstacle but until then I’m happy to continue reading in an obsessive compulsive way 🙂 (not sure if I used that correctly but it sounds cool… *shrugs shoulders* oh well).

So yeah. FanFiction. Sign up and read, and your life will never be the same. Guaranteed or your money back 🙂

Oh and P.S. If your wondering, yes, I do read the endings. It’s me we’re talking about

04/29/2011. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Lola and the Boy Next Door

Who loved Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins???? I DID!!!!!!! So naturally I read the second one and it was AWESOME!!!!!

Who wouldn’t fall in love with a character who wore wigs to school and who made a promise to herself that she would not wear the same outfit twice. Mind you, said outfits include an old picnic blanket, a white sheet, and gold sleeves as leg warmers but you can’t put a damper on free expression. Anyway, Lola is just a normal girl. She has two gay dads, she wants to look special for her winter formal (by dressing like Marie Antoinette), and she just wants her dads to like her boyfriend (who happens to be 5 years her senior).

Oh, and her next door neighbor whom she has loved forever has moved back and has complicated her (almost) perfect like way out of proportion.

So yep, just your average run of the mill teenager 🙂

One of the things I like most about the book is that Lola is the fun, pretty, wacky girl who boys flock to,  instead of the nerdy girl who is Lola’s best friend. I was getting sick of those kinds of books. I also liked that Anna and St. Claire made appearances because I LOVE THEM and THEY ARE SSOOO CUTE!!!!!!!!

Lola was a fun read that I devoured in 2 days and I can’t wait for Ms. Stephanie to write another book, preferably with a boy with a Southern accent because they (along with most other accents) are my weakness 🙂

I cried (in case you haven’t noticed I cry/almost cry a lot when reading books, but during the middle parts, not at the end because as we all know, I DO NOT read unhappy endings) but it was a good kind of crying because it meant that it wasn’t just a fluff book (which are good sometimes but not always) but a book with substance.

Yeah, don’t be fooled by the name people (Stick It reference), though it sounds like one of those trashy romance novels, its really not, and you can take that to the bank

PS. I don’t really know what that means but it sounds cool 🙂

04/28/2011. Uncategorized. 1 comment.

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